Rough days


My heart melts for this little guy. Oh Oliver, you are my little happy pill, our happy pill. Always happy and funny. I’m so glad I get to spend so much time with him. Like today Tuesdays, he’s home all morning before his speech therapy starts 11.30 followed by afternoon pre school.


After playing with cars in flour, we opened up Oliver’s car wash.


And then he started to cook a messy soup. I can still remember how fun it was to do ‘geggamoja’ as a kid (do we have a English word for muddy/messy/sticky mix?).

I just got a text from my sweet Lina if I was ok? She said she gets worried when I don’t update the blog.
No I’m not ok. Last days have been really rough again. My poor hubby is not doing well at all. I’ve been sad and worried, but also angry with him, but more angry at the whole situation. I just feel so helpless. There are periods when everything is pretty good, but right now he’s in a dark place. It’s been over three years since he got his last concussion and he’s still dealing with post concussion syndrome. The headaches are gone, but the awful depression… I just want my husband back. I’m trying to do my best to take care of everything, but it never feels enough. I’m normally feeling strong, but right now my guard is down and I’m feeling low, and it’s so painful to see your beloved one struggles so much.

It’s hard to write about and also in respect for Johan. Sometimes I wish I could write more about it. The blog is a happy place for me, like good therapy. I’m so passioned about interior design, I like taking photos and get better at that, and I hope I give you some inspiration. I choose to post most happy things, maybe I should mix more? Or not? I don’t know. I’m just thankful you are checking in here and follow me. That means a lot to me ♥

Kram//Xx Cissi

7 thoughts on “Rough days

  1. Malin March 10, 2018 / 4:52 pm

    Cissi, var rädd om dig!❤️ Hoppas att Johan kommer ur sin depression så han får må bra och familjen får må bra! Kram


  2. Dina March 8, 2018 / 8:00 pm

    So sorry to hear Johan is not doing any better. I so hope he gets back to being himself. I am sorry you and the boys have to see someone you love in that dark place not enjoying life. I love your interior designs . 🌟🌟Wishing the family all the best! hugs& love💜


  3. Jenny Sörensson March 8, 2018 / 5:17 am

    Vi tänker på er och hoppas, hoppas allt snart blir bättre! Kämpa på!!!


  4. DGGYST March 6, 2018 / 12:11 pm

    oh =( Depression is a thief and a liar and I am so sorry it has set up camp in your beautiful life. =(


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