Rough days


My heart melts for this little guy. Oh Oliver, you are my little happy pill, our happy pill. Always happy and funny. I’m so glad I get to spend so much time with him. Like today Tuesdays, he’s home all morning before his speech therapy starts 11.30 followed by afternoon pre school.


After playing with cars in flour, we opened up Oliver’s car wash.


And then he started to cook a messy soup. I can still remember how fun it was to do ‘geggamoja’ as a kid (do we have a English word for muddy/messy/sticky mix?).

I just got a text from my sweet Lina if I was ok? She said she gets worried when I don’t update the blog.
No I’m not ok. Last days have been really rough again. My poor hubby is not doing well at all. I’ve been sad and worried, but also angry with him, but more angry at the whole situation. I just feel so helpless. There are periods when everything is pretty good, but right now he’s in a dark place. It’s been over three years since he got his last concussion and he’s still dealing with post concussion syndrome. The headaches are gone, but the awful depression… I just want my husband back. I’m trying to do my best to take care of everything, but it never feels enough. I’m normally feeling strong, but right now my guard is down and I’m feeling low, and it’s so painful to see your beloved one struggles so much.

It’s hard to write about and also in respect for Johan. Sometimes I wish I could write more about it. The blog is a happy place for me, like good therapy. I’m so passioned about interior design, I like taking photos and get better at that, and I hope I give you some inspiration. I choose to post most happy things, maybe I should mix more? Or not? I don’t know. I’m just thankful you are checking in here and follow me. That means a lot to me ♥

Kram//Xx Cissi



Welcome to the world little man, Allan Johan Sebastian ♥ Born on Christmas Day. Aww, I miss my new nephew so much!!!! He was for sure the highlight of our Sweden trip!!

The cute blanket I found at Target and my hoodie is from Arizia, Johan asked if I moved into that one?! Almost.



Cousin love!


Triple in favorites – my brother Victor, Lina and Allan!!

My favorite player


My amazing Eddie-Bo!! He’s been playing so good and has been scoring many goals in every game in the tournament, until today when he had triple coverage every shift (punkmarkerad av två tre spelare) I didn’t even understand that until other parents told me… I just thought he didn’t get as much done as normal… oops…


Go Bloomfield Blades!!




Oliver and Lily ♥ The love story continues -Mom, I love Lily so much!!


They had their first disagreement at last weekend’s lunch date. Lily told her mom – Oliver put ketchup in my hair but I’m still gonna marry him! Next time she saw him she told him that was not ok but I still love you! Awe!! Also. He just got invited to her birthday tea party. Oliver and all the girls. So cute!!


A proud hockey mom with an important sign. A must every game Eddie-Bo says.


Now over to something surreal and crazy that happened today. When Eddie-Bo and I left the rink we heard 5-6 gun shots!!! We got into the car and then I saw a police man aiming his gun behind his car… I called our coach that I knew was behind us to tell them to stay inside. The locked down the rink for over an hour. They finally got the gun man and everyone got home safe. Scary moment and I was shaking when we took off.

Now I’m gonna celebrate life!

New pajamas and travel day

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Movie night in new cute nutcracker pjs, from Hanna Andersson. I wonder how many pajamas I’ve ordered from them thru the years?!

Good morning! I think everything is under control… or… I still have some errands to run, a nail is broken, not cool :), I also need to get the last holiday cards done. A week ago I decided to skip cards this year, but late Saturday night I changed my mind and rush ordered cards and now I’m stressing about that… so typical me, puh, but I got them delivered yesterday, a day earlier than estimated! So gotta go and get shit done :) before we need to head to the airport!

I might say hello from up above, so awesome with wifi on the flights nowadays!

Winter wonderland


-Mom, look it’s snowing!! Great words to wake up to, finally some snow!


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We had to cancel our plans for today, both Eddie-Bo’s game in Toledo and the early Redwings game. He still runs a fever and the knee is not better either.

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Can’t bend it so well…


From happy to cranky all day! He’s so frustrated he can’t run and move and most of all play hockey! He hates his life today… He’s very dramatic, my poor thing! His warm cool winter camo coat is from Zara, if you wonder :)

Kram//Xx Cissi